Forgive Me

 Forgive Me... 

I’m about to get married now,

Breaking the vow I made somehow.

A vow I thought I’d keep for life,

But now I bow to time and strife.

You tied the knot long ago,

Built a life, let your love grow.

While I stood still, waiting for you,

Bound to dreams that never came true.

I thought I’d never take this step,

Live alone with memories kept.

But life had plans I couldn’t foresee,

And the weight of waiting burdened me.

Each moment of longing was hard to bear,

Every second filled with despair.

Without you, my days felt hollow,

A void of hope too deep to swallow.

Night after night, I spoke to your shade,

Prayed to the love that time betrayed.

But silence has grown too loud to endure,

This aching loneliness has no cure.

Forgive me if my heart moves away,

Forgive me if it’s touched today.

This bond is of need, not desire,

A compromise, not love’s fire.

Without you, my world was incomplete,

Every dream shattered at my feet.

But this life alone is too hard to face,

Now I seek solace in someone’s embrace.

You chose your path and walked ahead,

While I clung to the words you once said.

But now I must let this prison break,

Free myself for my own sake.

She may not love me the way you did,

She may not wait like I always hid.

But this is the only road I see,

Life has forced this choice on me.

Forgive me if I seem to change,

Forgive me if it feels strange.

This is my defeat, my final call,

A new hand to catch me if I fall.

Perhaps you’re happy in your world,

Perhaps I’m now just a story unfurled.

But my story without you remained undone,

Now it’s time to finish what’s begun.

I’m about to get married now,

Though my heart is still yours somehow.

Time may heal this aching scar,

Or leave me longing for what you are.

Forgive me, for there’s no other way,

I’m tired of waiting every day.

This is a beginning born of necessity,

Perhaps one day, it will set me free.